Emotions in motion

I've been meditating lately to deal with anxiety and one thing I'm learning (or trying to) is that every emotion is valid and doesn't need an explanation. When I'm sad or stressed, I invariably try to diagnose it. Why is this happening? What did I do wrong? What triggered it? I don't do this when I'm happy of course because happy is fun. Why would I want to ruin it by dissecting it? But when the feeling is negative, if I can parse it to death it will go away - so my reasoning goes.

Thing is, it will go away without all the examination. Because life is fluid and ever-changing and I'm a post-menopausal woman who has a different emotion every 6 hours. October has been a wild month for me, coursing from complete inner calm to deep grief and everything in between. But I suppose that's the price of a full life. How boring it would be otherwise.

🎥 Take This Waltz (Tubi)
This is more than 10 years old, one of those gems you wonder how it slipped by unnoticed. Sarah Polley directs and mannn can she. It's a brilliant portrayal of relationships and how they evolve and devolve, but the real stunner is the montage mid-movie, set to Leonard Cohen singing 'Take This Waltz'.

🎥 Presence (Hulu)
Let it be stated that the acting in this is not good. Almost to a person. But the rest of it is so interesting that you probably won't care. It's a ghost story, but is not scary because the whole thing is shot from the perspective of the ghost. Why has no one thought of that before? Brilliant! Make this your next Spooky Season watch.

📖 The Happy Couple and The Red-headed Pilgrim
Are you looking for a book to blow through that won't make you think? I have two for you! The Happy Couple is about an Irish couple about to get married. They and all their friends are obnoxious prats, not a one of which I could root for. But I wanted to know how it ended. And The Red-headed Pilgrim is about an insufferable entitled white man who spends way too long living off his parents generosity and whining about the meaning of life. But it made me laugh a lot.

Phew. This one was like pulling teeth for some reason. I'm glad I did it though. Writing is such a soother for me, like Xanax before a plane ride. Ahhhh. Happy Halloween week!

xoxo,
Carla